#one time i like broke my leg and was crying and then uncle johnny came to pick us up bc barry didnt like when we ordered ambulances

[jujulebee]

this is like, the opposite of me, like i would like, climb things i wasnt supposed 2 and then when i DID get GRIEVOUSLY INJURED i would like walk it off lmao

Egg fell off of something she most certainly shouldn't have been climbing and now she's hamming up her nonexistent injuries for her babysitter Anya

Anya: oh you poor thing!!

Egg: 😔😔😔😔 poor thing

[scarletwinterxx]

Coming Home pt.4

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 PART ONE || TWO || THREE || FOUR || FIVE || FINALE ||  BONUS

The weekend was restless, I couldn’t sleep without waking up every few hours. My mind can’t seem to shut off. My argument with Jaehyun before he left was just nagging in my head.

I was in need of someone to talk to so i called a friend I knew could knock some sense into me. 

“I’m 2 minutes away, open the door my hands are full”

“Stop bossing me around we’re not in the office, you’re not even my boss” I muttered, walking to the front door. When I opened it Johnny was already standing there, phone in one hand and a bunch of other stuff on the other

“What is that?” I asked, tucking my phone in my back pocket then opened the door wider to let the giant in

“Gifts for Chae Yoon, Jae told me she likes the cookies near his new place and told me to get some for her. These are toys from her favorite uncle, me” he said while setting down the drinks he was holding “And this is for our coffee talk, but first let me see the little cutie”

“Like I said, Hyuck is still her favorite” I replied but he ignored me, already making his way to the living room where Chae was playing.

I could hear Johnny smothering my kid from the other room while I put the cookie he brought on a plate to give to Chae

“You look cuter, heard you can walk now. Oh wow” he said to the little girl who was happily smiling back at him. No one was really immune to this little girl’s charm, one smile from Chae Yoon can make you want to give her everything she asks for

“You look just like your dad, it’s crazy”

“No need to remind me” I mumbled, taking a seat on the couch

“You two good? I mean I know you’re not since you called me, and he also called to ask me to check up on you and Chae” Johnny said, shooting me a worried look

“I’m fine, we just had an argument”

“Sounds serious to me if he can’t call you himself, can I know what happened?” he asked

So i retold the happenings last Friday, Johnny is like a big brother that I’ve never had. Both Mark and I are very close to him, he’s practically family. 

“That’s like years of arguments summarized into one, both of you were tired and stressed. He has his worries and you’re frustrated but trying to hide it. if anything, it’s good that you two finally said what you’ve been thinking for so long”

“What he said hurt, Johnny. How can he say I wanted to leave him that bad? Was I awful to him? I can’t recall one moment where I didn’t have his back. I was always on his side no matter what. It hurt hearing him say that”

“I can’t speak for Jaehyun, but I know he’ll never hurt you intentionally. He’s a good guy, he just needs some time”

“was 7 years not enough?” I chuckled

“You don’t always end up with the one you love, just like you said. Do what’s best for the both of you and for Chae Yoon”

“I don’t have a doubt that he’s a good father, atleast I know someone will love my daughter for the rest of her life” I said, looking at the little kid playing with her favorite teddy bear

“Just, don’t forget to love yourself too okay? I love the both of you, I really do. Even if you two don’t end up together as long as you’re happy”

“And you, baby girl. Always be happy like this, a lot of people love you” he told the little girl who was currently running around Johnny, screaming in joy. 

Monday came, things got a bit hectic and I called in to work from for the day. Ofcourse Taeyong didn’t question my request. Fully understanding the situation. 

I don’t want it to seem like I’m taking advantage of my friendship with my boss, so I’m still doing all the work like I’m at the office.

“Yes, those drafts have been approved and can be sent to the design department. I already had a meeting with Yuta, he says he can take over from there” I said through the call.

Chae is in the living room, while I was sitting on the dining table with my laptop infront of me and paper strewn across the table. 

“I just have one more progress report to send, but after that we can take a new contract to review. You can send it to me maybe some time this week-” I cut off midsentence when I heard Chae crying, give me a second

“Hey can I call again later” I excused myself and walked to the living room, Chae Yoon wasn’t sitting where I left her. I followed her cries to see her sitting behind the couch, 

“Baby how did you get there?” I asked, quickly picking her up to shush her. I noticed a big red bump starting to form on her forehead

“Did you fall? Oh my god” I said quickly checking her body, she winced and hit my hand away when I tried to lift her left arm. I didn’t even think twice, I grabbed my phone and my keys rushing out the apartment.

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Jaehyun was not going to lie, he’s been distracted throughout this whole business trip. He’s not usually like this, always focused on his work ready to perform his best. But then again him and Y/N have never had an argument as big as they did before he left.

He left bad leaving like that after arguing. He wanted to explain himself, tell her he was sorry but seeing her cry like that broke him. For the first time since the breakup this was the only time he saw her cry. 

He didn’t mean to hurt her like that. He did love her. He still loves her. 

He also knows she deserves better. 

“Jaehyun?” Rose called out, calling his attention again. It wasn’t the first time his thought drifted away, fleeting all the way back to where his home was. 

“Yes, sorry. I think Taeil will approve. If they carry on with the offer and not go any lower than what we previously discussed then we can definitely sign with them before we head back” Jaehyun answered, his mind half present in the moment

“Okay, I can tell the representative and managers later. Is there anything else we need to discuss? The expansion in China right?” she asked, opening another folder to read out more details

“We can set a meeting with Sicheng when we get back to Korea, I’ll tell my secreta-” he was cut off when his phone started to ring. 

It was Taeyong.

He thought for a second why his hyung would be calling in the middle of the day, they both had work. 

The first call he let it ring out, for a second the vibrating stopped. But then it started again, this time Johnny’s name was flashing on the screen. 

He started to get this feeling that something is wrong so he quickly excused his self,

“Yes hyung? I’m in a meeting”

“Y/N is at the hospital right now, I’m on my way. Taeyong too” Johnny said so fast but it felt like Jaehyun’s world stopped. 

A hundred wrong things already rushing through his mind

“Can you give me a second?” he said then walked back in the meeting room

“Hey I’m sorry but I need to cut this meeting short, there seems to be an emergency” he told Rose who answered with a smile, fully understanding the situation. 

“Hyung, are you there yet?” Jaehyun asked, already rushing out of the office and back to his hotel

“Yes I’m on my way to their room” he can hear voices from the other side and Johnny asking for your name

“What happened? Is Y/N okay?”

“It wasn’t Y/N, Chae Yoon got into an accident at home” 

Jaehyun paused, his world felt like it stopped. Then he was in full protective mode, “I’m hoping on the next flight back, please stay with them”

The flight back to Korea seemed a bit longer than really was, Jaehyun felt like he was just floating. Not really knowing what he was doing, he threw his stuff back in his suitcase while staying on the phone to look for the earliest flight back, 

The whole ride back his leg was bouncing rapidly, wanting nothing but to hold his daughter in his arms and make sure she was okay. 

He felt like the worst father, not being there for her right now. He could only imagine how Y/N feel. 

When he got to the hospital and asked for the room his daughter was admitted in, he saw Johnny standing outside on the phone with someone. 

Johnny looked up and saw the younger one walking towards him, “Jaehyun is here, you don’t have to drive down Mark. It’s fine we’ll take care of her, don’t worry too much” he said then bid goodbye to Y/N’s brother.

“Hyung” he breathed out, slightly out of breath from running through the parking lot to here

“They’re in there, Taeyong’s in there too. Y/N’s napping with Chae, she just stopped crying just now” he explained, and then Taeyong stepped out of the room gently closing the door behind him

“Oh thank god you’re here, Chae Yoon is fine. She bumped her head and her left arm is a bit swollen because she fell on that side” his Hyung further got into detail, his heart breaking just thinking about his daughter being in pain. Wishing it was him instead

“Y/N was in shock, she wouldn’t stop crying when we got here. I think she passed out while crying”

“I can go to their apartment to get some stuff Chae needs, how about you? do you have a change of clothes?” Taeyong asked him, gesturing to the suit he was still wearing

“Yea, I have my suitcase in the car. I’ll stay with them” he mumbled, his hyung gave him a pat on the back before walking away

“You okay, Jae?” Johnny asked the younger one

“Yea, just... feeling guilty” he mumbled, admitting the defeat and guilt now occupying his mind

“Don’t be, it was an accident. Chae is fine, if anything I think she was just shocked and got a little bit anxious seeing Y/N cry”

“I’ll grab dinner for us, go be with your family” and with that Johnny said goodbye, leaving Jaehyun alone in the hallway outside the door.

He took a deep breath as if to prepare himself before gently opening the door, careful not to disturb his daughter or Y/N

The sight that welcomed him made his heart ache and full at the same time, the uneasiness he felt those past few days were gone.

There were a lot of realizations in that moment. One was he wished he could take back those words he said to Y/N, number two was he missed his daughter much more than he thought he did and last was that Johnny was right. 

They are his family. 

With those realizations he slowly walked closer to the bed, standing behind the chair Y/N was currently sitting on. Her head was resting on her arm, her eyes puffy and nose still a bit red. He looked over his daughter, a little bump on her forehead but apart from that he didn’t see any other visible injuries. It didn’t lessen his worries though. 

He thought about it for a second before gently laying a hand on Y/N’s back, her eyes quickly opening and landing on their daughter before looking behind her.

The moment their eyes met, her eyes started to water again

“Hey, don’t cry. It’s okay” he said in the most gentle tone, trying not to wake Chae Yoon and to calm Y/N down

“It’s my fault, I- I wasn’t watching her” she said in between hiccups, he knelt in front of her then took the her hands that was resting on her lap

“It was an accident, she doesn’t blame you no one’s blaming you” he told her sincerely but she just kept on crying

“I’m such a bad m-”

“Don’t. Don’t even finish that sentence. You’re a good mother, the best one. Just because one accident happened does not mean you’re a bad mom” he said, he tried to wipe the tears away but it kept on coming

He’s now standing in front of her, Y/N still bowed down and her cries could still be heard

“Hey, come here” he said pulling her to him, it didn’t even take a second before she was crying on his chest with his arms around her

“She’s going to be okay, you know she hates seeing you cry” he said while rubbing her back in hopes of giving her come comfort, 

She didn’t need to say anything, for a while they stayed like that, wrapped up in each other’s arms. 

After a while her cries stopped but made no effort to move, Jaehyun leaned on the bed their daughter was lying on so now Y/N’s head was resting on the crook of his neck while standing inbetween his legs

“You want to sit down?” he asked her, 

“No” 

“Okay” he held he a bit tighter.

They both knew they had a lot to talk about still, but right now this was what they needed. It made the most sense. Later on they knew they had to face the facts once again. 

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After the crying fest, I finally stopped crying. Again. Finally realizing that Jaehyun’s here. I turned to him, he must’ve felt me staring at him

“What?” he asked

“You’re here” I simply said, he chuckled at my statement “Yes”

“You’re not supposed to be home til tomorrow, right?”

“You think I could not come home when Johnny called?” he asked back, totally understanding what he meant, 

I was going to call him first but it just so happened that Taeyong was calling to ask about another report but I hurriedly explained I was driving down to the hospital because Chae got into an accident, After that everything was just a blur. I was both in shock and panicking and trying to drive both of us safely to the hospital that it totally flew over my head to call him. 

“I was going to call you but I just... I was” I tried to explain but not really finding the words

“It’s fine, Y/N. I should’ve been here anyways” he mumbled, now looking at Chae with a look of sadness on his face

“You didn’t know this was going to happen” I answered, laying a comforting hand on his arm

“I’m sorry”

“It wasn’t your fault, Jae. You don’t have to say sorry” I told him

“Not about that but for making you upset, for saying those things to you” Jaehyun said, nothing but sincerity in his voice

“I know”

“We’ll talk about it once everything is better with this little one, but I need you to know I really am sorry. It was very selfish of me to say those, especially to when you’ve been nothing but great to me”

“We all have our faults, Jae. I made the choice of loving you, whether or not you love me back that’s all up to you. It hurt hearing you say it, but I’m not mad. There’s still a lot to talk about and we can do that when we get home”

We looked straight into each other’s eyes, coming to a agreement that this could wait and that our daughter was the main priority. But it did make me feel a bit better hearing him say it.

“Yea, home” 

“Dada” we hear a little voice call out, Jaehyun’s head turned so fast I was afraid he injured his neck

“Yes, baby? I’m here” Jaehyun leaned down to her, a gentle kiss landing on our daughter’s forehead

“Dada” she said again, a little bit happier this time. She probably realized that her favorite human was finally here

For a second I was just staring at the two interact when a thought popped into my head, 

“Oh my god” I said making Jaehyun turn to me

“What? What happened?” he asked worriedly

“That was her first word. Jae, she just said her first word” I said, feeling shocked the second time today. Jaehyun then realized the same thing, quickly looking at Chae Yoon again

“Who am I, baby?” he asked pointing to himself, the little girl smiling up at him and grabbing his face with her little chubby hands

“Dada” she happily replied, as if understanding just what Jaehyun asked her

“Yes, that’s me. Oh my god”

“Are you crying?” I asked him, chuckling as he tried to discreetly wipe away a tear

“No” I raised a brow at him

“Yes, she just called me dada” he said, the smile on his face so big he’s dimples were on full display

“Well you are her father”

“Let me have my moment” he said rolling his eyes at me before turning back to Chae Yoon who was now pulling on his hair

“She looks like you, is named after you and her first word is dada. How is this fair?” I jokingly asked, taking the seat I was previously occupying before Jaehyun got here

“Better luck next time, I guess” he teasingly told me

“As far as I know she’s the only child I have”

“Well for now”

“Jung Jaehyun”

“What?” the cheeky smile on his face was too cute I only managed to roll my eyes at him again

“You hear that? Mama said-”

“I didn’t say anything”

“Mama’s jealous you look like dada, but secretly she really loves it” he told the little girl, Chae Yoon continued on smiling up at her father now an identical dimple on display. 

A knock on the door took my attention, Chae Yoon’s pediatrician walked in

“Oh Hi Jaehyun, good to see you. Y/N, I have the results of the x-ray and mri” Jaehyun turned to me, silently asking for an explanation

“They just had to check to see if she has a possible concussion because of the fall, and she flinched when I tried to raise her left arm” I quickly explained then turned back to the doctor

“Yes, well good news both tests came back clear. No broken bones or anything. Did she take a nap?”

“Yes but only after you told me she could”

“We had to keep her up for a while just to be sure, sleeping when there’s a possible concussion can be dangerous but no worries she’s all good now” the doctor explained to the both of us

“All is clear, she can go home now if you guys want. She’ll be more at ease and comfortable at your home” the doctor said, I looked over to Jaehyun to find him already looking at me

“Yea, sure that would be great” I answered

“Alright, I’ll prepare the paperworks. Just go to the nurse’s desk to sign” the doctor said a quick goodbye before exiting the room. 

Just as the doctor exit the room, two other enter

“Was that her doctor? Is everything alright?” Taeyong asked, passing a bag of Chae Yoon’s things to Jaehyun

“Yes, turns out we actually don’t need to stay for the night. But thanks for the stuff, I’ll change her before going home”

“I brought dinner, can we just eat this at your place?” Johnny asked, gesturing to the bags of take outs he brought

“Sure, Did you eat yet? Wait, did you come straight from the airport?” I asked Jaehyun, now that things have calmed down I see that he’s still weaning a suit

“Yes, I have my stuff in the car”

“You flew wearing that?” I asked again

“Yes, he did. He hopped on the earliest flight he could, he didn’t have to change, Chae Yoon is fine” Johnny said, listing all the things we just said

I rolled my eyes at him, getting Chae Yoon’s change of clothes

“We’re going to baby proof the whole house, that would be fun” the gentle giant told the baby who was happily watching him in amusement, it was almost as if everything that happened earlier was long forgotten. 

Taeyong was looking back and forth between me and Jaehyun, silently trying to understand the situation. I shot him a small smile which he returned. 

“She can say dada now” Jaehyun proudly says making me sigh, I just knew this was only the start of him boasting about it

“Can she now? You’re such a daddy’s girl no wonder he’s whipped” Taeyong said, Jaehyun just smiled down at the little girl with nothing but adoration in his eyes. 

“Okay okay, I’ll go change her. Why don’t you go and sign the paperworks” I told Jae, ready to take Chae Yoon home.

The two older ones went with him leaving me with Chae Yoon, 

“Mommy’s really sorry baby, I hope you don’t hate me now. Of course you don’t, you only have love in your heart don’t you” she was smiling up at me, her little face peeking through the hole of the shirt. Not to be biased but she is the most adorable baby I have ever seen. 

“I’m really sorry, I’ll take better care of you from now” I said then picked her up carefully, her hands holding my face and giving me a kiss

“You love mommy? Love you too, baby girl. Always”

After settling the paperworks and making sure everything was on the clear with Chae Yoon we all drove back home. Taeyong drove while I sat at the back with Chae Yoon while Johnny and Jaehyun were following behind with their own cars. 

“Home sweet home” Johnny said as we got to the house

“You don’t live here, Johnny” Taeyong replied, making his was to the kitchen to prepare the take outs we have

“Right, anyways good to be home huh?” he asked Chae Yoon who was a bit grumpy from the ride clinging onto her dad with her little fist and her arm wrapped around her teddy bear.

After having dinner, we talked for a while before the two older ones decided it was time to go. 

“I can go down the store to get those baby proofing things I was telling you about” Jaehyun said while he cleans up Chae Yoon after getting messy while eating dinner while I clean up around the dinning table

“Aren’t you tired yet?” I asked him, he only managed to change into more comfortable clothes before dinner, he flew in from another country few hours prior

“I’m okay” he said with a smile on, how he’s not tired yet I don’t know

“Okay, if you say so” 

About an hour later, I already put Chae to bed when Jaehyun came back holding a couple of bags.

“I thought you were getting one thing?” I asked him when he entered the apartment

“I bought everything, plus some midnight snacks. Is Chae asleep?”

I showed him the baby monitor showing Chae dreaming away in her crib

“Alright, let’s get to work. This are for the sockets, these are for table corners, and these are to bolt the furniture to the wall” he explained as he takes out the items one by one

I was just looking at him while he unpacks all the stuff, walking to the kitchen to get the tools under the kitchen sink. He only noticed my gaze when he came back to the living room

“What?”

“Not that I’m guilt tripping you or anything but now it’s clear who’s the better parent”

“Hey, don’t say that. We’re a team here” he chuckled

“You know exactly what to do with her, and look at me getting her hurt and all that” I mumbled, taking the socket covers and started to walk around the apartment

“I do what I can but the things you do and did for her, I can never do that. You basically gave her life, how are you a bad parent?” I hear him ask from behind me

“When I heard her cry and she couldn’t say what hurts I just... I felt helpless. I kept thinking that only if i was watching her more closely that would have never happened”

“Y/N, we’ve all had some kind of parenting fails. Would it make you feel better if I say that once I accidentally fed her too many cookies?”

“No, please don’t overfeed my baby with cookies” I mumbled, I knew he was just trying to make me feel better

“You’re not a bad parent, this won’t be the last time she falls, when she starts to learn how to ride a bike or run around the park and accidentally scrape her knee or when she trips while running to a class she’s late for. We can’t stop that, she has to learn what it feels to fall in order to learn how to stand back up, and you are the best person to teach her that”

His little speech got me a bit emotional but I don’t dare to show it. 

“I can’t teach her how to ride a bike, dumb dumb”

“Right, you don’t know how to do that either my bad” the teasing tone was very evident in his voice

“Keep talking Jung Jaehyun, I will throw you out of this apartment”

After baby proofing the whole house, trying the best we could to make as safe as possible for a baby. We both slumped on the couch, sitting side by side.

“We did good” he said holding his hand out for a high five

“Yea, aren’t you going home?” I asked, noticing the time on the big wall clock

“You’re kicking me out?”

“You flew today, plus you were in endless meetings for the past couple of days. Which by the way what happened to that?” I asked, genuinely curious about the business trip he abandoned. 

“It’s alright. I have a few more meetings I need to attend but I can just call Rose for rearrangements”

It shouldn’t bother me that he’s with another girl, especially if it’s a business trip but I can’t say it didn’t cross my mind

“Oh, is it about the global partnerships?” I asked, dancing around the topic

“Yea, Taeil asked me to go because the guys we’re signing with is a big asset to the company so he was skeptical to just send our global representative, plus Rose is just new to the team”

I didn’t want to ask questions.

I shouldn’t.

For a while there was just silence, both of us not having anything to say.

Jaehyun was the one to break the silence

“Y/N” he said my name as if he was scared I won’t answer him, I turned my head to look at him. Silently telling him to continue

“I- I’m sorry, for everything”

“Jae-”

“No, I shouldn’t have said the things I said. I’m sorry. It was very insensitive of me to say you wanted to leave when you’ve been nothing but be understanding towards me”

“I forgive you”

“You must really love to forgive me that easily” he said with a small smile on

“It won’t do me any good if I stay mad at you, you’re going to be in my life one way or another. I’d rather have it be on good terms than not. You may not be my fiance anymore but you will always be Chae Yoon’s father and for that I would forever be grateful to you. It gives me comfort and assurance knowing that she’s going to be loved for the rest of her life”

“If I can’t be with you but Chae can have her father, then who am I to say no? I- I broke the engagement off because I didn’t want to you feel like you hated this life, in a way I knew you’d stay even if we break things off. I wasn’t so sure what would happen to us if we kept going”

He was silent for a while before sitting up, looking around the apartment then back to me

“I was scared, I thought I was doing everything wrong, that I was letting you down” he said, “When your parents told us straight in our faces that they disapproved but you stood up for me, I wondered what did I do to deserve you. When you didn’t know how to tell me you were pregnant so you just left the test that says it’s positive on my table then I came to look for you but you were avoiding me because you didn’t know what to say”

“I didn’t” I mumbled

“We figured it out, as a team. Because that’s what we’ve been for a long time. It’s always been me and you”

He took a deep breath as if to prepare his self for the next words he’s about to say

“Now I realize what you mean, I do love you. I know how much you love me, I’m lucky to have someone love me that much. And now I want you to know that I do love you, and I understand that won’t be enough for us”

It felt like we were breaking up, but I didn’t feel sad. 

Time will pass, seasons will change. It was like our story started out in the summer, all fun and warm, then fall came, we found comfort in each other and spent our time watching the seasons change together. But then the dreaded winter came, trials were thrown our way trying to break us before the warmth comes back again. 

That’s what it felt like with him, that was how our story went. 

“From now on, I won’t be the selfish guy I was. I won’t ask you to stay with me even when that’s all I want”

At this point I was crying again, “Hey, don’t cry. I’m sorry” he said sitting close to me then pulling my hands away from my face to wipe the tears himself

“We need some time to see what it’s like to be you and me as just you and me, we’ve always been a unit. I’m still trying to figure out how not to call you whenever I want or how I need to get used to not having you with me in the mornings”

“I’m sorry, I really am. For taking this long to realize my mistakes, for making you think you’re not loved the way you should be”

“One day, when I’m sure I’m the man who deserves your love and the man who’s really worth to spend the rest of your life with then I’ll come home to you”

“Only if you want me still” he said with a sad, hopeful smile. 

“I love you” I whispered to him, I knew he knew what I meant with those three words. What I was trying to say was that I understood what he meant, that I forgive him, and that this was the end of this chapter for us. 

“I love you” he said then pulled me in. The moment our lips met it felt like how it always did, like coming home. He was and has been my home. I wanted to capture this moment and keep it in a box forever because for the first time in months it felt like I wasn’t walking on eggshells or trying to hold back. It was just me and him . 

He was the first one to pull away, he looked at me with one last smile and one last kiss before saying goodnight. 

[neo-culture-mafia]

Mafia!Dad!Taeyong

You still saw him as the cuddly teddy bear of a dad since...forever. Ever since you were little, he was sure to take on both roles of parenting. Your mother was nowhere to be seen and you were fine with that. Tae played both mom and dad and your uncles were always around to help fill in the gaps. 

Yet as soon as you turned 13, he became distant and you helped to notice. It was always him leaving the house and not coming back for days at a time. Uncle Johnny would always help you realize that you never did anything wrong; it was just how your dad’s work was going. 

Yet, you were getting lonely in the ‘Boss House’ all alone. You didn’t have pets besides the scary mastiff that your dad kept as a watchdog. You TRIED playing catch with it, but it would keep it’s place as if it was a royal guard at Buckingham Palace. It didn’t even look at you, just kept it’s head straight and grunted when the buzzer rang. 

You went up to the buzzer and saw it was your dad who was buzzing in from his car. You just rolled your eyes as you hit the green button that unlocked the gate. He rolled in but you just stood there, watching the sleek black car roll into the usual spot in front of the steps. 

“Hey sweet pea.” He smiled as he turned the car off and hopped out of his car. He left his arm open for a hug with a nice smile. He was in a normal outfit today -- no leather, no holsters (as far as you could see), no bulky chains; just a striped shirt, his earbuds, and his glasses. 

You dropped the attitude and ran over, linking your arms around his waist. “I was only gone for 2 days.” He laughed as he leaned down to reach your height more. “I know, I just...missed you is all.” You said as you closed your eyes and savored this moment while you could.

Yet your happiness was cut through roughly when the shrill of your dad’s ringtone rang. You sighed and your shoulders dropped as he gave you a sad smile. “It’ll just be a moment, then we can go get some lunch, yeah?” He asked and you tried to look on the bright side. 

You nodded and watched as he answered and walked up the stairs to the front door. He nodded to the dog and the dog lost all stiffness, opting to lay down on the ground and relax its broad shoulders. 

You skipped up the stairs to the now tired dog and sat down next to it. You pet behind its ears and you could hear the deep breath of relief and relaxation come from its wet nose. You looked at the shiny piece of metal as it laid on the ground; dangling from the neck as the dog stands and takes position. 

‘살인...he doesn’t look like a murderer. He looks...like a dog.’ You thought.

“You’re not that mean...” You sighed and his ears perked a little at your voice. “I know you love belly rubs.” You said and the dog automatically flipped on his back, his head resting on your thighs. 

His paws curled as he awaited the slipped out pleasure. “Oh fine. Only because you’ve been good lately.” You smiled and began rubbing his belly. “But stop eating my shoes. Just because you smell other people on them doesn’t mean they’re alive and here to hurt me.” You begged and the dog grunted as if he understood you perfectly...something that it seemed your dad couldn’t do. 

“Hey, honey?” Taeyong swung his head out of the front door to look at you. The dog quickly scrambled to his feet and stood at attention in the presence of your father. You could see the shoulder of his suit and knew that you wouldn’t be eating at the diner for lunch. “Something important came up, and I’m holding a meeting inside.” He said and you nodded, looking back down at your now bare and dog-less thighs. 

“Can we get lunch some other time?” He asked and you nodded. “Yeah.” You spoke quietly. “I’m sorry, y/n. This time of meetings and leaving will pass eventually.” He said and you could only nod in response. 

You were hurt and felt like you didn’t matter. He was leaving everything that was about you. It hurt knowing that yeah, your mom left...but now your dad was getting bored of you.

“Okay.” You nodded and understood...or at least tried to feign like you did understand. You didn’t, but that would only create more problems. “Alright. I’ll be in the west wing in case of emergencies.” and with that, he walked away again. 

You looked to the dog standing next to you. “Come on.” You patted your legs for him to lay down again and you were just met with a grunt and the readjusting of his tired paws. 

“It’s okay. He’s gone, now. You can relax.” You tired petting him but he nipped at your hands. 

You stood up and stormed back in the house. You couldn’t even pet your own dog because your dad has corrupted it into a mean attack animal that is too afraid to relax. 

~~~~~

It’s been 5 hours and you’ve been constantly pacing your room for the last one. The meeting was still going on and you could hear yelling from the other side of the building. It was nerve-racking and angering. 

You were still reasonably upset since the morning and you’re anger has just been sitting and marinating to become a huge ball of rage and disappointment in your chest. 

You finally popped and swung your door open. You stomped out and towards the yelling on the other side of the home turned business office. “No! You listen to me!” You heard your dad yell as soon as you got right outside the door. 

“She is not going anywhere!” He continued yelling but your own anger made you disregard his own. 

That was something you got from your dad beside his stunning looks and caring nature; slowness to anger -- but once you pop, no one is safe. It came in handy for both of you respectively, but it made fighting with each other a days-long ordeal until one of you became too guilty to continue. 

The door opened and it was like opening a door to an unknown dimension that could be described in one word, ‘hell’. On the farthest side of the table stood your dad surrounded by Johnny, Mark, Taeil and a couple other faces that weren’t recognizable. On the side closest to you was a lowly woman who sat with an annoying smirk on her face. She was surrounded by men in suits who held documents and law cases. 

Your dad was being contained in the arms of Mark and Johnny while Taeil was trying to calm down your dads yelling and cursing. 

Yet, once you stepped foot in the room -- all anger and hatred ceased. It was like a pin-prickly feeling cascading down your body as all eyes were set on you. You disregarded the woman smiling at you as you looked at your dad. “Dad?” You asked softly and he started freaking out for a different reason. 

“Y/n.” He breathed softly and you could see his tense muscles loosen and he became practically limp. The woman stood and tried to touch you, but you dodged her and walked to the only person who you could feel safe with: your dad. 

Johnny and Mark removed themselves and placed themselves in front of both of you so you and your dad could have a moment of border-line privacy. “Who is she?” You asked and he only sighed as he looked down at you. 

“y/n...” He sighed and he looked...broken. “That’s your mom, y/n.” He said and your heart dropped to your feet. “What?” You asked and he nodded. You just grew angrier. “Why is she here?” You asked, your heart rate starting to elevate higher and higher. 

Taeyong looked to his family for help on how to explain this correctly. Yet, they were lost on how to do this themselves. “She...she wants custody.” He said quietly and you popped again. “Custody?!” You shrieked loudly and broke through Mark and Johnny. 

The woman still held the sinister smile and unpromising look. “You want custody? Of me?” You asked and she nodded gingerly. 

“NO!” You yelled and started stomping over. “Grab her.” Taeyong said as you were raising your fist to bring it down on her face. “You left ME. Not the other way around.” You yelled as someone’s arms picked you up swiftly. “You can’t just come and go as you please.” You yelled more as they tried taking you out of the room. 

“PUT ME DOWN!” You yelled and the arms dropped you but still kept you encased for everyone’s safety. 

“Honey. This has been planned since you were a baby.” She said softly as she stood up and tried coming closer. “Your dad gets you until you’re 13 and I get you until you’re 19.” She said. You tried breaking free and attacking her. 

There was a bang from your dad's side of the room. Mark and Taeil were now restraining her on a table. “Don’t listen to her, y/n.” He said as he was trying to break free even more. “He didn’t want you, y/n.” She said coming closer, and you broke. 

You didn’t try to fight anymore. 

“I wanted you y/n! SHE didn’t want you!” He struggled in Mark’s grip. 

“Then why would he agree to give you up?” She asked and came closer. Johnny moved so she couldn’t closer. “It’s written and everything. He signed he agreement.” She said going over and grabbing a piece of paper.

It was there...written out and approved. It was legal. “That is not my signature!” Tae screamed and you took a look at the signature...it wasn’t. “But how are you gonna get legal help if you’re not even legal?” She asked and Tae just laid limp on the table. “I’m not leaving with you.” You piped in. 

“But you have to.” She said and all you could do was look at your fightless father. He wasn’t fighting it anymore. 

“Y/n.” He called and you walked over after being released from Jonny’s protective grip. 

“I don’t wanna go.” You shook your head as you looked down to your rock. Tears were set in the sides of his eyes and were ready to spill. “Y/n.” He gripped your hand. “Dad. No.” You breathed, knowing what he was gonna say. 

“I’m not going.” You cried, head shaking. “Y/n...you have to.” He said and you tried to free your hand. “No.” You said, your head shaking. 

“Y/n.” He said sternly. 

“You. Have....you have to.” He said and his nose flared and lip trembled. “No.” You said and finally ripped your hand away from his grip. “let me up.” was all that he said and both men’s grips released. 

Taeyong stood up and barely opened his arms before you ran into them. “Dad...I don’t want to.” You shook your head, crying hard tears into his suit jacket. 

“You have to, honey.” He whispered and you shook your head as a sob escaped your chest. He wrapped you tighter and held you close to his own shaking chest. “No. I...I don’t...” You tried forming sentences but your adrenaline was going a million miles an hour through your whole body. “I’m scared.” You confessed and he let a shake come from his own chest. 

“I’m going to get you back. I have to...I have to do some things here and I am going to get you back.” He promised quietly as he brushed your cheeks free of tears. 

“But-” You began but he cut you off. “No. No ‘buts’.” He shook his head. “I need you to be strong and go for me so I can get you back.” He said and you cried a little harder. 

“Please don’t forget about me.” You begged and he wiped away your tears again. “I could never.” He admitted and you felt a soft hand on your back. “It’s time to go sweetie.” Your ‘mother’ called. 

You looked at your dads face one last time and turned around. You put on a cold face and wiped your tears with the back of your hand. “Do not call me that.” You said and pushed past her. 

“She’s all yours.” You heard Taeyong say and walk after you. 

You went to the front door and slid on your shoes. Taeyong came behind you and handed you your phone. “1 phone call away.” He reminded and you nodded, trying not to cry again. 

“I love you, y/n.” He said and hugged you once more. “I love you too, dad.” You said and he felt his lips plant a kiss on your forehead. “Cars out front.” Your mother bitterly said and walked past you two and out the doors. 

You turned around and followed her, passing Murder on your way out. “Cute dog.” Your mother spoke as the car pulled around. 

Taeyong stood behind you, his hands resting on your shoulders. “He loves head rubs.” You spoke and could hear Taeyong sigh from above you. “y/n.” He muttered. “Really?” Your mother spoke and went up. She should've backed away when the dog first started bearing its teeth. 

One snap and a scream, she was running into the awaiting car. 

“Good boy.” You rubbed behind the dogs' ears as it purred into your touch. You kissed its nose and just cocked its head to the side. “I’ll be back, Murder.” You called and kissed his nose again. 

His paw came up and rested on your arm. “Oh don’t act like that. You’re tough.” You said and the dog slowly rested its paw on the ground. “You’re gonna make me start crying, Murder.” You said and he looked down in guilt. 

“I’ll be home soon, just wait for me.” You said and stood back up. The dog took his usual stance, but some wet stuff came pouring out of his eyes. You placed one good rub behind his ears and turned towards your dad. “Don’t be so tough on him.” You pleaded and he looked down towards the dog. “He likes belly rubs y’know.” You said and your dad nodded. 

“Dutilly noted.” He smiled a little. 

“Let’s. Go.” Your mother called out the car window. 

“Well...hell awaits.” You called and your dad nodded. “I’ll see you soon, y/n.” He said and you became a little hopeful. He didn’t mean forever. 

“See you soon, dad.” You smiled and walked down the steps and into the car. “We got you a new wardrobe and school uniform waiting at home.” Your mom cheered from next to you. “Yeah?” You asked and the car started rolling out of the rounded driveway. 

You looked back through the tinted window to your dad and uncles standing outside your true home. Your favorite Murder-er standing next to your favorite parent. 

You leaned your head back onto the rest and just closed your eyes; daydreaming of you and your dad getting lunch in the local diner...

...maybe next time...

~~~~~

Taeyong sat in the living room, in sweat pants and a sweatshirt. Music played over the house speakers and he was enjoying a good book in the eerily quiet house; once filled by yours and his singing to the top 40 hits at the moment. 

Now the sky was dark and his books seemed boring. His hair that once held product from the meeting was now thick and all over the place as his eyes had been too puffy from crying to fix it. 

He had dismissed the others for the rest of the week so he could figure stuff out for himself in silence and downtime. 

He felt bad for the poor woman and decided to let her have a couple days with you...for that was all she was ever gonna get. 

He set the book down on his lap and stared out through the windows in the living room. He crossed his arms and just laid his hand against the cushion. 

His heart started to skip beats as his eyes began to fill with tears. He got up and was ready to go get a drink. He walked over to the small bar he had in the living room. He grabbed a glass and had his hand on the amber colored liquid. Yet, he just took his hand off and put the glass down. 

He understood that if he started drinking in order to mask the pain, he would never stop. 

The rumble of thunder brought him from his own dark thoughts. His body shook with realization and he ran over to the front door. He swung it open and the dog jumped to his feet. 

Ever since you left earlier that day, the dog has been whimpering and crying. He mimicked Taeyong’s true feelings, yet held his own will. 

“Murder.” Taeyong called and the dog turned his head to look at him. “Come on.” Taeyong moved out of the way so a path into the house was made. Murder faltered a little before taking Taeyong up on his offer. 

He padded in the lonely house and just stood next to the shoes, nudging your lone pair of Adidas; hoping your feet and legs would sprout of them so you can be here and give him belly rubs. 

Taeyong mosied into the living room and called Murder along with him. Tae laid on the couch so his back was leaning against the armrest. “Murder.” He called and the dog came waltzing in with one of your notebooks in his mouth. “How did you get into her backpack?!” Taeyong laughed and motioned for Murder to join him on the couch. Murder hopped up and squished in between his owner’s legs and the back of the couch. 

Taeyong took the notebook and flipped through it a little. It was one of your class notebooks. It looked like it was from Jeno’s class. 

‘Jeno keeps talking about his cats. I think he has a problem.’

‘Not to self: Don’t eat the sugar looking substance in the lab. Cocaine is not sugar’

‘Jaehyung was right...Mark really does look like a monkey when he eats bananas.’

‘Donghyuck keeps flipping his imaginary flowing locks. I should get him extensions for his birthday.’

‘...I wonder what my dad is doing...’

He read your last entry. He sighed and closed the notebook. “I’m waiting for you to get you back.” He sighed and Murder leaned his head down in Taeyong’s lap. 

His paw came down on the notebook and a huff came from his mouth. 

‘You are my sunshine’ came on through the speakers and Taeyong’s heart melted. 

He used to sing you this song when you were little to calm you down and now it was both of yours’ song. He laid his head on the back of the couch and let the tears fall. He held Murder close and let his tears go. He was so lonely and scared but could never tell anyone. 

Moments of when he was raising you flashed through his mind on repeat and it saddened him. He wanted to hold you close now more than ever. He had been gone for so long before now, just because every time he was free to spend time with you, your mother’s lawyers always seemed to break plans apart. 

He let the tears go as the storm clouds filled the night sky.

After 2 hours of non-stop crying; he pried himself off of the couch to travel up the stairs to your room. 

He needed something of yours right now and just needed to hold something of yours. His hand turned the knob to your room and he walked in with heavy padded steps. 

He sat on your bed and broke even further. He sunk into your sheets and pillow and held the stuffed animals that you wouldn’t see for a while. Murder laid on the floor next to the bed as the bed shook with the violent sobs belonging to his owner. 

Taeyong cried himself to sleep that night as all he wished for was you to be with him again. You were apart of him...and he needed you. 

[enniewritesathing]

John: 2, 4, 8, 10, 11, 13, 17, 18, 21, 26, 29, 46, 48, 49

thank you

02. What is one of your character’s biggest insecurities? Are they able to hide it easily or can others easily exploit this weakness? 

Believe it or not, he used to be real insecure about his looks, especially when he was younger. Before the glo-up (or rather, before his voice broke), he used to get made fun of how his hair made him look like a girl (”Hey Jake, what’s your sister doing here??”) or his lips being compared to a fish. “Johnny Fishy Lips, Fish Lips” etc. (His brother, not so much. They’re twins.) Or honestly, not bearing a lot of ‘white’ features (quote his grandparents on his dad’s side – yikes), or on how brown they’d get during the summer. He never quite understood why adults looked at him and his brother funny when they were with their parents – Noelle being Filipino and his dad is white and… there was some unfortunate-ness to that because they look mostly like their mom and none dad, and it was assumed that his dad got tricked or some shit or insert racist shit. At one point, he asked them if he and his brother were adopted; it’s caused John to be very shy and defensive and even gotten into a few fights because of it.

After the glo-up, it became way less of an insecurity because he’s learned to own up to everything about himself, and he also grew into his features. He still got snide comments about his lips and that he probably wouldn’t be a good kisser because of it. Pffft.

04. What are their favorite traits about their lover? (one psychological and one physical)

John loves how resilient Brian is. He came from a pretty bad family situation and Brian choosing to rise above that and be a better person for it? Amazing! (And then there’s karma and Brian is p e t t y knowing that what goes around, comes around). 

John’s a fan of Brian’s legs. They’re very shapely and John loves to run his fingers the length of them, and just do a lot of things with them.

08. What is, perhaps, their biggest flaw? Are they aware of this or oblivious to it?

His biggest flaw is that he can be really stubborn, and to get him out of that is to frame whatever he’s stubborn about in such a way is to escalate it. I would also say when he gets a strong (negative) emotion, it’s hard to get him out of that state because it overwhelms him. He’s aware of both and he’s working on it; if he has strong feelings about something, he’ll remove himself if he can. 

10. Is your character more feminine or masculine? 

John’s fairly masculine, he’s not like “RAWR I’M A MAN HEAR MY DEEP ASS VOICE AND WATCH ME EAT THE HELL OUT OF THIS STEAK”. Or, he’s not toxic about it. He’s subtle with the way he dresses, anything with a V-neck or schmedium shirts (he swears it’s not intentional, but Brian begs to differ). A lot of people think he’s hella feminine because of his long hair and how he looks in general but, it’s really not the case. He just likes to take care of himself.

11. What is something that would make your character fly into a rage?

If someone threatens Brian or his mom in any way. He’ll probably break bones behind that for real and he can do that real easily.

13. What are your character’s sleeping habits? Heavy or light sleeper? Blanket stealer? One that always rolls onto the floor? Pushes their lover onto the floor? Sleep talker or walker?

70% healthy. He can get anywhere between 6-8 hours on a good night, but since he loves naps, it can get pretty wild. He’s a heavy sleeper so, hardly anything can wake him up. John’s given up on stealing blankets from Brian, even the sheets so he just sticks a foot underneath the burrito and be done with it. He used to sleep walk, but he mostly grew out of it. I say mostly because he would sit up and stare at nothing or Brian for a while, then go back to sleep.

17. Does your character have dreams of getting married and/or having children?

Absolutely @ both of them. He and Brian actually talked about it several times, casual at first and even a joke or two (”omg just marry me” “huh?” “what??)” and then hypotheticals ‘okay so picture this–’  and then, ‘y’know, we’ve been through some tough shit together…’ so, he’s sort of waiting to pop the question.

Fatherhood makes him a little nervous because his dad died when he was young and other than his uncle who stepped in that role (and he’s a little problematic), he doesn’t have any male guidance. He would be the type of dad to read a lot of guidebooks and go to classes (”omg is that supposed to happen???”) or be worried about every single thing.

Fun fact!: At the end of Bare Knuckle, I wanted to do an epilogue/timeskip ending with John telling the whole thing to the kids (they ended up having a boy (the oldest) and twins – a boy and a girl. The twins were a surprise in that they were expecting the girl and come delivery time ‘yeah no you got a boy too’ “WHAT?!” ) and they’re like ‘papa, that’s wild as hell’. 

18. What kind of home would they want to live in? Where would they place this abode?

He’s actually living in it now, lol. The house is medium sized, but the lot is HUGE. It’s right on the water with a private beach. The house has a quiet area/sunroom (which is what he’s wanted in particular anyway), and the yard is really big enough to put just about anything and everything in it. At some point, he’d like a small garden to tend to, a study area for Brian, maybe a pool?

21. What is one of your character’s biggest fears? How would they react when dealing with this fear?

His biggest fear is not being able to live a long life; he wants to be old. Both sides of his family, the men tend to not live that long due to whatever reason. John gets a little anxious when he gets super sick because of what happened to his brother, so he listens to Brian when he tells him he needs to slow down and take meds. As for fighting, he’s less apt to take bigger risks – he puts more thought into it instead of ‘eh, I can take it’.

26. What is their lover like sexually? How do they feel about their lover’s quirks, needs, etc?

John likes to think that Brian is like an onion – he has many layers. Some layers are tougher than others. Sex is really dependant on how Brian feels since his needs is on the low side; foreplay is a requirement but John doesn’t mind because he’s all about spending time and peeling back the proverbial onion layers Brian has. In fact, he’s learned to be patient with Brian. He feels like he could be a little more adventurous, so once in a while he’d ask Brian if he wants to top (even though John can sort of take him) or ask for a ~special~ night where he’s subbing and let him do whatever. It turns out that that’s a major turn on for Brian, and when he’s feeling very touchy-feely, John lets him. Brian has told him that he feels a little selfish that he wants to use John sometimes, and he’s like ‘no, please, go ahead!; if you wanna do some nasty things, I’m down!’ Brian think he isn’t that good, but John is pretty vocal and lets him know he’s doing right.

Brian has became more bold in his advances and demands (turns out he’s pretty bossy lol) and a couple of times, John had to ask for a raincheck (”I am with you in spirit but my dick ain’t having it”) – but that’s what toys are for. In fact, he has a collection and when the drives or work schedules are really off, then that’s always an option. 

Sex isn’t sex but it’s more like the smaller things and how they really feel about each other. And then there are the times Brian wants John to fuck the stress out of him… he’ll do what he can, lol.

29. What is one of the most courageous things your character has ever done for a loved one?

When options to treat Jacob’s cancer were dwindling, John pretty much tried to sacrifice his own body up for anything that needed for him to get better, or at least try to have a better fighting chance. He got the gist of a lot of what was happening, but it really came down to this: “He’s my brother. We’re supposed to protect each other.”

46. What is some random affectionate thing that your character always does to their lover? 

John has a tendency to roll up on Brian, and like does what the cat does sometimes and gently head bunts him and when Brian reacts, he kisses him either on the cheek or forehead and acting like nothing happened OR he waits a bit to read him and see where it goes. Or random kisses. It can get tricky because Brian is a little taller, so he always grabs his head and just *smooch* on his forehead. (He knows that that’s his favorite aside from neck kisses)

48. Is there anything in particular that would ignite your character’s jealousy? Or does your character not get envious?

John’s not really the type to get jealous or anything like that. He likes it when Brian smiles, no matter what the source of it is.

49. What is something that your character has nightmares about? Are these frequent? Do they heavily affect your character’s mood?

John has vivid nightmares either about trying to rescue his brother from whatever and then when he gets within a very short distance, Jacob just dies, or the nightmares about being medicinally tortured, not being able to protect Brian and/or watch him die, or ‘fighting’ and him being greviously injured. They used to be real frequent to the point of being diagnosed with nightmare disorder. Now, they don’t happen so much because he knows all of the triggers and how to avoid them, and if they do happen, he knows none of it is real (even if they do feel like they are).

It fucks him up emotionally every time, and it takes him a while to calm down, from removing himself immediately to just talking it out or even cry about it.